4.20.2010

Have you seen my White Jacket?

I  am writing in the wrong blog again. 

I don't care.

They are my blogs and I will write wherever I please. So there. 

(I used to fancy me a Norwegian once who would say "So that!" ..I really did enjoy watching him misappropriate silly English phrases.)

Do any of you know what to do with panic attacks? I have had them since I was a teenager, but always thought it was something else. Inner ear infection, pregnancy, malnourishment, etc. As I got older I started labeling them my intuition...my warning sign that something bad was happening somewhere. And I would also take a pregnancy test just to make sure that it wasn't THAT. 

I have had one ongoing panic attack since Saturday night. I cannot keep food down, my heart races, I am dizzy, nauseous...it's ridiculous! My only reprieves have been when I have finally fallen asleep, or when my dear friend fed me beer until I couldn't feel my heart pounding through my shirt anymore. The worst part is the wrenching in the pit of my belly. Ugh.

I think I am starting to panic about my panicking.

And yes, I already took the pregnancy test. It has been so long that I had to look the results up on the internet to make sure I hadn't read them wrong. It was negative. Don't you worry. 

Now, you tell ME not to worry.

5 comments:

thinkingtoohard said...

But what if you just let yourself have the panic attack? Just feel it, and let it go. I mean, the worst thing that can happen is that you'll be uncomfortable for an hour. Your body can't keep your level of adrenaline high enough to panic 24/7. So just give yourself permission to feel it. No biggie.
Sounds stupid, but it works!

terri said...

Turns out to be excellent advice. Thank you.:)

CausedByKarma said...

personally, i just put a xanax under my tongue ... panic attack all gone ... well for THAT time being anyway. at least i didn't have to really cope with anything, or work anything out :-D

thinkingtoohard said...

I'm really glad it worked for you. Panic sucks!

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