(picture found at www.with1eye.com)Ah - yes! This is what I do! I create something, invite everyone to look at it, promise upcoming features if they will just continue to come back to look at it, stop creating, and then hide until everyone is gone.
God, I suck.
I am weary of me. And I don't even have to act like I am just a little down so that my readers, friends and family won't tire of my whining. I sent them all to look at a DIFFERENT version of me! Ha! Ugh....
So. Let's get down to brass tacks. I am:
- Unemployed
- Divorced
- 40
- Depressed beyond all reasonable doubt
I keep reading about infinite possibilities and positive thinking and how we are all in control of our future if we can get our thought life under control. I read amazingly inspirational books written by amazingly inspirational people and experience profound paradigm shifts - only to forget whatever insight I gained the very.next.morning. What a waste.
I am at a critical point, folks. I do not have many options for success or fresh starts left - and yet, I am still walking around in dream state. This isn't going to work.
What kind of proverbial kick in the pants is it going to take to get me back on track? What is my track, anyway?
OMG. I am scared. And lost. And ridiculous.
4 comments:
Is it the very.next.morning. yet?
May today bring you joy equal to yesterday's sorrow. They are, after all, inseparable.
Sounds like you already experienced a good swift winter-blues life kick. Now pick yourself up, brush yourself off, get back on that horse and ride Terri ride - with spurs on! :-)
I find a good dose of Olivia will usually recharge almost anyone.
You know where we live! :)
I just stumbled on to your site while checking out a friends new blog. Now I don't believe in coincidence or fate. I believe in the King of Glory who rescued me. If you truly mean what you say and you are at a critical point. Then just throw your hands up in the air and give in and surrender to the One who created you. He longs for a relationship with you and will welcome you with open arms. Please just trust. If you have never checked it out- check out the Bible. Start with Luke 18: verse 38-43 .
Grace and Peace to you,
A neighbor
Jim, Jorge, and neighbor: kind words to a desperate soul is a ministry. Thank you all for your words. Don't ever downplay the power of your encouragement...:)
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